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Know Your Own Worth – A Primary Care Manifesto


Several months ago, as I was in the last few months of my private practice (which was coming to an end), I watched the Joy Luck Club with my wife.  I had seen the movie many times before, but somehow at that moment in time, when I was grieving for my practice and my profession, I began to have some startling clarity.

Specifically, I was particularly struck by this dialogue in the Joy Luck Club:

I tell you the story because I was raised the Chinese way. I was taught to desire nothing, to swallow other people’s misery, and to eat my own bitterness. And even though I taught my daughter the opposite, still she came out the same way. Maybe it is because she was born to me and she was born a girl, and I was born to my mother and I was born a girl, all of us like stairs, one step after another, going up, going down, but always going the same way. No, this cannot be, this not knowing what you’re worth, this not begin with you. My mother not know her worth until too late – too late for her, but not for me. Now we will see if not too late for you, hmm?

Knowing your own worth is all about self-esteem and how much one values themselves in the context of a larger community and society.  Being a doctor that worked with child victims of sexual, physical, emotional abuse, and neglect at a child abuse assessment center, I have witnessed and understood the insidious nature and the destructive effects of abuse on a person’s self-esteem.  But little did I realize that I, too, was also a victim from a professional standpoint.  To take it a step further, primary care as a whole is also a victim in its own right.  Along the way, somehow, we (which I’ll refer to as primary care from now on) stopped knowing what we’re worth.  So let me explain, through my own experience.

Primary care physicians, in general, have been constantly reliving trauma after trauma for many years that appears to be beyond our control.  To me, examples of this type of trauma come in the form of  persistently low and declining reimbursement combined with increasing uncompensated work.  I directly experience this type of trauma every day for nearly 10 years, because I have been on the front lines as a micropractice doctor.  I saw the immediate, direct effects of my practice whenever there were changes in payment structure, changes in my patient’s ability to pay for medical care, and any legislation or technology that changes in my workflow.  As a micropractice, you had to be quickly adaptable to these changes…otherwise you’d be swept into the tide.  I saw and understood the consequences of public health policies, especially those that appear to be with developed with good intentions, but seriously misguided, and how it affects my work and the health of my patients.  Perhaps, that is why I have so much say about primary care and health care technology.

For some trauma victims (especially those in an abusive relationship or in situations where the victim is being groomed for ongoing victimization), they don’t realize, recognize, or accept that they are a victim.  The victim is looking for acceptance by anyone, even from their own abuser.  The victim begins to lose their self-worth, self-esteem, and their own dignity in the search for this acceptance.  In many ways, primary care has become that victim in its search for acceptance in our health care system.   For me, I lost sight of my own self worth in the hustle and bustle of seeing complicated patients and getting reimbursed for little and struggling to make ends meet, ultimately failing to see the forest for the trees.

Besides losing self-esteem, a negative self-fulfilling cycle begins to happen to the victim.  For primary care, we’re witnessing a steadily eroding work force and persistently poor desire by medical students to go into primary care.   We have data and articles that continue to highlight these plights and yet somehow, our trajectory continues to be the same.  Furthermore, primary care has been defined by others about what we do (being called a “gatekeeper” and being called “worthless” by some of our patients).  In short, primary care physicians have been and still are victims in this hostile health care system that does not value what we do.

And sometimes, I wonder, if we as a group actually value ourselves by how we conduct ourselves with our patients (even though we take great efforts to provided good care for our patients) and with other organizations or entities within the health care system.   Although it should be acknowledged that money, prestige, and influence are big factors in maintaining a position of power in the current health care system (the hospital, insurance, pharmaceutical, and the large EHR industries are a clear example of this), I see disturbing trends in how the leaders of primary care organizations these past few years reflect the lack of self-esteem that appears to define primary care.

For example, back in 2011, the American Academy of Family Physicians implicitly threatened to leave the RUC (AMA’s Relative Value Scale Update Committee), a committee whose lack of transparency in deciding what health services get paid to physicians (which is discussed here), if it’s demands were not met.  Well, the end result was that the AAFP backed down on its threat and the RUC still has the full clout that allows them to set recommendations for these reimbursements rates for Medicare (and other health insurance companies too).  The response by the AAFP sounded like a reasonable justification for its decision.

Furthermore, as a justification for progress, we hear seemingly positive news that there are some efforts to may increase reimbursement of primary care in the near future.

With these seemingly reasonable justifications though, I thought about how easily domestic violence victims justify their own decision to stay in an abusive relationship.  Regarding reimbursement rates, we are truly fooling ourselves to think that this is a sign of a major turnaround when one looks back at how much reimbursement inequality has been going on for decades.  I don’t get a sense that medical students will instantly flock to primary care based on this development alone.  Likewise, we allow ourselves to be victimized time and again because we worry that if we decided to take value in ourselves, we could potentially hurt those that we care for.

The reality is that if we don’t take value in ourselves, the health care system will implode, and many more people will have lack of access to care.  It’s not a matter of “if”, it’s a matter of “when”.  Already, many people are uninsured or under-insured, don’t have adequate access to health care and primary care, and the costs (both financial and the emotional costs to each person and to society) keep rising.  That would be a colossal tragedy, all because we didn’t value ourselves on behalf of our patients.

I believe it is past time that we hope and wait for lobbying and legislation to save ourselves.  Approaching and proving to other academic experts about the benefits of primary care in our ailing health care system ad nauseam will not change our situation.  It is apparently not profitable to be a primary care physician or an advocate because they have already determined our “worth”, which was rated as “worthless”.  Take a look at how our Meaningful Use initiatives have gone for most primary care physicians, especially those in the trenches and in independent practices.

So what else is left to do?  It starts with us…each and every one of us that still hopes and believes in a vibrant, primary care-prioritized health care system.

First, we must affirm our worth and it must reflect everything that we do, with our patients and with anyone else that has a stake in the health care system.

Second, we must engage in constant, public education of our work and what we do.  We must take advantage of social networking to spread the word and educating our youth about healthy living and how not supporting or ignoring primary care will eventually hurt them and their communities.  For example #FMRevolution is a great way to spread the word through Twitter.  It doesn’t take a astrophysics major to understand how valuable primary care can be for society.  Most of the public seem to have taken for granted that there are plenty primary care physicians around despite the reality.  (For me, most of my patients didn’t realize how problematic it was until I let them know about it when I closed my practice…talk about being too late!)  The good news is that we still have many patients on our side (whether they realize it or not).  Through grassroots engagement and public support, we can eventually change the perception of our work and our worth by others.  Let us focus our efforts with the public rather than work within the system for which we have no standing or perceived worth.  Legislation would then just be icing on the cake, once the cake is baked.

So on this National Doctor’s Day, know your worth as a primary care physician.  And spread the word.

Author: shihjay

I am a family physician and previous medical director for a child abuse assessment center. I am now promoting my new electronic health record system (NOSH ChartingSystem) that I have developed and used for myself in my private practice since 2010 and now I want to share it to the rest of the doctoring world.

3 thoughts on “Know Your Own Worth – A Primary Care Manifesto

  1. I have enjoyed reading your blog, which updox linuxI just ran into today.

    I had to give up Linux because all of the programs I MUST use in my family practice run only on Windows.
    Currently, that would be AmazingCharts (which I have used for several years, and which started out just as you seem to be doing, as the baby of a family doc who hoped to avoid being squashed by the elephants — but seems to be turning into a sort of midget elephant itself, driven by “MU”.)

    The other biggy would be Dragon Naturally Speaking — which is the only voice recognition program that really works very well for medicine, and it doesn’t run in Linux, either.

    I wish you really well in your somewhat quixotic quest for open source medical records — I am 70 years old, and just trying to hang on long enough to really get to know my grandkids, and do some of the travelling I was unable to do when I ran my medical practice full bore. I probably won’t be changing to a different EMR

    • Thank you Tom, for your comments and looking into my blog and my project. Just to let you and others know about possibilities with using NOSH ChartingSystem…you can install NOSH ChartingSystem on a dedicated computer in your practice (that is using Linux as its operating system). BUT, then you can access NOSH ChartingSystem to it’s fullest potential on any other system in your clinic (Windows included!). I’ve used Dragon Natrually Speaking on Windows, and the speech-to-text goes straight into the input box on the web browser that is directed to NOSH ChartingSystem. It is super flexible. I’ve used the speech-to-text function for Android (and also for the iPad) and it also works well. That is the beauty of NOSH…it is system agnostic. Linux is preferred as the server, but by no means are you restricted (for your personal client) on what operating system you use in your practice. Let me know if that makes sense!


  2. I love it whenever people get together and share opinions.
    Great blog, keep it up!

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